I miss you, Mama. Thank you for being the best Mama ever and for the shining example that you left for me to follow. The big shoes that I will never be able to fill no matter how hard I try. Even after one year, your grands and great-grands still talk about you all of the time.
Just yesterday, Braylee and Anabelle ran back into the house to tell me that they saw a butterfly that was turquoise in color and that it let Braylee touch it. They were so excited and exclaimed that Mama Dee came to see them! Every time I see Palmer, she tells me that she misses Mama Dee. Pax enjoys seeing butterflies and thinks it is you, too. Matter of fact,sometimes he screams so loudly, it scares me at first. Is it you, Mama? Are you there? Britni has had a very tough year adjusting without you and still struggles from time to time. Rosemary and Adam have seemingly adjusted fine. They still talk about you too.
I wish you would come and see me, Mama. It's been a year and I talk to you and ask you all the time to come and see me. I just want to know that you are ok and that you are with Daddy, Richie, and other family members.
I am really ok, Mama. Yes, I wish you could have stayed longer with us, but you were so tired from the cancer. Your body just couldn't keep going. You fought so hard to stay with us. Thank you for that. I can't help but be gracious to our Lord and Savior that he spared you so much physical pain, nausea and other horrible side effects from the chemo and drugs. You handled it all like a champ. You amazed everyone, especially the doctors.
Although I miss you dearly, I have been blessed beyond measure with wonderful children and grandchildren and I am very happy. . My life is so fulfilled and I count my blessings every single day and loving life! I don't take life for granted. It is too precious.
It's hard to believe that a year has gone by. I still feel like you are right here with me......just a phone call away. In my heart, you are right here. You live within me and I feel you every day.
A couple of Sundays ago, we sang at church, 'When We All Get To Heaven,' and I just closed my eyes and listened to you sing. There are times, I can hear you singing if I listen closely.
I love you, Mama. I miss you, Mama. Just give me a sign that you are ok and that heaven is everything and more than you could possibly imagine. Give Daddy and Richie a big hug for me and tell them that I love them and miss them also. Hug Margie for me, too! Mary Lou is still lost without you, Mama. I have never seen such closeness with sisters.
I'll never, never be afraid to die......for I know that you are waiting for me in the sky!
Rhonda Lou
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